When the Lord and the heaven are silent !!

I find myself walk through a season where I find a strange silence.....

A silence that causes me want to stop where I am,
stop whatever I am doing
and
search frantically for the presence of my God.

I know without doubts that He would never leave me nor forsake me.
I know without doubts that He desires communion with me more than I could ever dream of.
If that's so, Why is it that all I hear is silence !!


I cry out saying,

Lord Jesus, Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, forgive me and lead me in the way everlasting.

I hear no answer.

I say, Is there something that I failed to do Lord, please forgive me, reveal it to me and help me. I always want to be right with you.

I hear no answer.

It's strange how my heart and mind know that He is present, yet the silence is strong.

Ah the pain of the silence of God. I sat down reading few articles online and this sentence encourages me during this season, it reads,

When heaven seems silent, mercy and grace never is.

I walk on with this knowledge instilled deeper into my spirit that , "Faith in the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ is the key to making a silent heaven speak into your situation."

Even if my God doesn't, I know by now that, He alone deserves all the glory and He is the king of the universe and I will still bow down to Him and Him alone and continue to seek His ways.

I pray that my Lord Jesus Christ will increase my faith and enable me to be steadfast in it for His glory.

Withdraw in prayer or Stay in grace

When faced with a situation where you know you cant go on but you are right amidst a crowd, what do you do? Do you withdraw or do you stay beyond yourself?

I Wonder what you would choose to do.

I often find myself there. A situation where I find myself,

short of grace to tolerate even the slightest mistake,
short of anymore that I can give,
short of any more strength to carry on,
short of joy to rejoice anymore,
short of mercy because of hurts,
short of compassion of another persons hurts,
and many many more...

At the same time, I also see the need of the dear ones around intense and essential.

Torn between the two, I ask myself, what would the Lord do if He were in my shoes.
Praise God, He did not just sit in HIS throne and give us commandments to keep. He stepped down
and walked every bit of a human life and lived the same and left us with the step by step
way back home.

I have learnt that,The habit of seclusion is with drawing, momentarily or for an extended
period of time, from every day noise and demands, to spend some time with God for the
purpose of connecting with God and allowing your spiritual and emotional batteries to be
recharged.

When Jesus withdrew, he often prefered 2 places: around the water and the mountains.
Water speaks of life, even the storms of life. Mountains speak of strength beyond.

U withdraw gracefully
* to hear God the Father more clearly (Math 26:36-46)
* to re-charge spiritually and emotionally(mark 1:34-35)
* to eat ( mark 6:31-32)
* to gain the right perspective (john 6:15)
* to learn to do spiritual battle (Mathew 4:1-11)
* to listen to God

Jesus also withdrew when the people tried to make him King by force.John 6:14-15 and Mark 1:35

This is a place which we should exhibit caution too. The Lord deserves all the glory and if you
are in a situation where it is going to be directed to you rather than Him, we should choose to
correct and withdraw rather than take His glory.

In any other situation, I have learnt that we must choose to stay back in grace.

Look In the Mirror Of Life

A truthful look in the mirror I took
I had two options
I could look at what I see in its totality
I could look at what I wanted to see

I chose the former option
Ah!!! the pain that struck me.
I have heard "truth is seldom sweet"
And I tasted it for myself

I didnt think I was what I saw.
I fell short of many standards that I had set.
I was hiding in the glories of the good

The world knew me to be a fighter
Someone who sprang up from a fall
Someone who strived to over come
Someone who didnt let the past hold me down

The mirror of life showed me otherwise
Pointer to aspects where it wasn't true
Revelations of self-defined boundaries of success
Ignorance to everything else and attributing it as vain.

How can one like that be helped,
unless a light that exposes the darkness shone
The Lord found me and has been faithfully working on me
He shone His precious light on my life

Lo !! I could see a lot more in the mirror of life
Things I couldnt see earlier
Things I refused to see
Things I was blinded to

In this new insight of self
Down came the disappointments and frustrations
In seclusion I found myself go
And in the comfort of the closed space of just God and me
Began a slow acceptance of the same

I thought that was the end of the lesson, But I was wrong
The Lord taught me one of the most profound lessons of life,
And it is that,

"Denial of a problem does not remove its presence or diminish
its existence.

Acceptance of a problem does not conquer or overcome it either.

It is acceptance with accountability & a relentless spirit to
persevere to conquer in the Lords Spirit that not only overcomes
but also helps others overcome."

Tough yet rewarding is the walk of acceptance with accountability
Painful yet fruitful is the walk of obedience and perseverance
Tiring yet victorious is the walk of aligning to Gods will.
And In His spirit we can do all things.

May all of you experience the same too.